Starting over, which is where I am right now creating the life I always meant to have, I find myself daydreaming with a terrace in my new house with it lots of new ideas like planting aromatic Herbs and vegetables to use in my cooking creations but all in individual nice pots.
A place to relax, to make barbecues but with good taste because all things from now on have to be as I feel inside and yes the word is, beautiful.
I want to create a home at my image in essence, a place I will have all I need and all the recreation I want when I want it.
Yes I know, 42 years old and I sound an old lady LOL but I lived so much and I had so many experiences so much parties and fun , now I just want time for myself, I miss me and I need to stop, just be with me until I leave life when my day comes…
God, I miss watching sunsets from the wall of my childhood home, and to eat fruit right from the trees... Oh yes I want trees as well, I want all that makes me happy back into my life.
A swimming pool... Why not?! Well, my happiness doesn’t depend on any of it but I do feel like a little girl again, with simple but fun things to play with and yes that matches the happiness I already feel inside.
A place to relax, to make barbecues but with good taste because all things from now on have to be as I feel inside and yes the word is, beautiful.
I want to create a home at my image in essence, a place I will have all I need and all the recreation I want when I want it.
Yes I know, 42 years old and I sound an old lady LOL but I lived so much and I had so many experiences so much parties and fun , now I just want time for myself, I miss me and I need to stop, just be with me until I leave life when my day comes…
God, I miss watching sunsets from the wall of my childhood home, and to eat fruit right from the trees... Oh yes I want trees as well, I want all that makes me happy back into my life.
A swimming pool... Why not?! Well, my happiness doesn’t depend on any of it but I do feel like a little girl again, with simple but fun things to play with and yes that matches the happiness I already feel inside.
Not that I’m starting to become a hermit, but because it’s my nature to be one… I can’t help it I love being with me and never found a better company, not that I’ve looked for one but it’s true, I love being with me and this new home will be my 2nd paradise.
Maybe some people are right when they say Capricorns are born old in essence and when they reach adult life they start becoming younger and younger till they feel like children again but wiser, that’s how I feel and it’s so much fun freeing myself from that serious me and now I can play, have fun with a heart as pure as a child’s because I found myself and I made simple all that was complex and made me retract from expressing what I really feel, and who I am.
The truth is, I’m home again and it’s not made of wood and stone but my inner home, I’m back and so happy I could fly.
Maybe some people are right when they say Capricorns are born old in essence and when they reach adult life they start becoming younger and younger till they feel like children again but wiser, that’s how I feel and it’s so much fun freeing myself from that serious me and now I can play, have fun with a heart as pure as a child’s because I found myself and I made simple all that was complex and made me retract from expressing what I really feel, and who I am.
The truth is, I’m home again and it’s not made of wood and stone but my inner home, I’m back and so happy I could fly.
0 comments:
Post a Comment